Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Happy Birthday Mom!

Today is my Mom's birthday. She would have been 65.
It's so hard to describe what I feel.  I called my step-dad, Ron, to see how he was doing and her voice was still on the voicemail and it was so good to hear her sweet voice. I miss her in so many ways. I miss her magical way of encouraging me and checking to be sure I'm taking care of myself. I miss just being able to call and say hi. I really miss her hugs and how she'd hold my face in her hands and smile at me. 
She could always sense when something was wrong and had a wonderful way of getting me to talk.  She was just beautiful and it took me by surprise sometimes how beautiful she could look even as she aged and even when she heavier. I miss her cooking and her knack for "beautifying" everything. I love how she made such an effort to love my dog because she wanted to support me.
I just want to tell Mom that I love her and I'm grateful that even though she's not here I know she's with me. I feel her still encouraging me and every so often I feel even feel her hugs, but it's just not the same as the real thing! 

Thursday, December 4, 2008

The Beginning

I've been wanting to start a blog for months now, inspired by my amazing sister, Michelle, who has become a master blogger. We live two states apart and it's my way to feel closer to the day to day goings on with them. My hesitation for starting a blog has been not knowing exactly the best way to do it, time, and while there's so much going on in my life, it all seems so not news-worthy. It's just me and my dog and who wants to hear about that?! Finally, it's not my gift to say meaningful things in just a few words!

That being said, I find myself wanting to document something for someone and I really want to connect with past friends and stay in touch with current ones. I've moved around and have met many wonderful people and I'm HORRIBLE at staying in touch. I've started getting on Facebook and already I've reconnected with a few people and it's been wonderful so I'm more motivated to ge this going.

So, I'm sitting in a hotel room, the Downtown Portland Embassy Suites and decided why not now? So I'm beginning. Gotta start somewhere right? Here's the beginning of "The Adventures of a Girl and her Dog."